Honey what do you mean because of that love he's gone? If he wasn't venturing far from home, from his adopted home, then he wasn't having much fun in life. Feline HIV is a horrible thing. Even if he didn't seem to be in pain, he can't have been feeling great if he wasn't putting on weight. You did the right thing. You cared for him and loved him when no one else would. That is a beautiful thing. You showed kindness and compassion... There isn't enough of those things in the world