hun - maybe you could make yourslef og by just telling yourself you will go to the first one to see what is like and then see what happens. They really are brilliant and are definately the highlight of my week - the girls are all lovely and even if you dont feel like chatting much its great to hear all the stories that you can say - ooooh me too! It makes you feel a little less clueless hearing that others are going through the same thing. Good luck - I really hope you end up going!