Its blinking hard hun.

I really struggled the first 3ish months part of it was because of the normal newborn stuff but I had a lot of demons I hadn't faced after losing DDD (dearly departed daughter).

I found out her sex early on so I had some time to get use to the fact I was having another girl straight away after losing one but I hadn't thought about how it was really affecting me.
I SHOULD have gone to see someone but I didn't and gradually over time it has been easier to deal with but I have a very different kind of sadness now. Every milestone I DD1 makes I wonder what DDD would have been like.

I miss DDD SO much but I am ETERNALLY grateful that she sent DD1 to us because she is perfect. If DDD hadn't left, DD1 wouldn't be here ... it all worked out JUST how it was meant to in the end and thats something to be rejoyced.

Nae x