Hi hun, I am so sorry for your losses too . I've had one late loss myself and can't imagine multiple m/c, big hugs hunni.
There is a great thread Pregnancy after Late Loss & Recurrent Miscarriage, I am part of that thread and there are some really lovely ladies there to help you with your fears/anxiety throughout your pg. Believe me, I am now pg for the second time, and it hasn't been an easy run for me. I have many doubts and fears but try to stay positive, which isn't always easy! I hope you can join us there