Welcome to Belly Belly,

Sorry you have found your way into this part of the forum, so many losses is a really tough thing to go through.
What you are feeling is perfectly normal hun, becoming pregnant after recurrent m/c is incredibly trying on your emotions and it is very hard to get excited and hope that things work out "this time".

Have you been through the testing processes to see if there are underlying issues for the recurrent MC? Usually places will start after 3 m/c so if you haven't gone down these lines and want to, then talk to your GP. Just be aware though that sometimes there is no known cause or reason why things have gone so wrong.

My advice is simple - you just need to have faith that things will work out and you will hold a baby in your arms one day

Best of luck
Nae x