Hello to all of you strong ladies. I've just joined this today, and have felt comforted that other women have been through similar things as I have. My grandmother died on Mother's Day, and after her funeral five days later - I started to bleed. I was nine weeks along. I went to my OBGYN who told me that there was no longer a heartbeat present. There was one just a week prior - I was so sad. This is my fifth loss. I do have two beautiful girls; one is 12, and one is 5. After my first daughter came so easily, I tried again two years later only to suffer an ectopic, and two miscarriages a year after that. Then came my second daughter with the help of oral and vaginal progesterone up until the 13 week of pregnancy. I had another miscarriage 2 years ago, and now this one. I really don't understand it all. I get pregnant so easily, but can't keep them after the 9th week. I do so want more children - but I'm so afraid! This D & C that I had this time was really rough and painful. I'm getting older now (35), and am wondering if I should just quit. Maybe I should adopt? Is God trying to tell me something? Any advise or help would be so greatly appreciated.