Laney.... Thats great news!! Keep up the good work bubba!!!
Sorry i have been MIA.. HEAPS going on here!! Had Dr appt yesterday, all went good- except we had a fight about me not taking the aspirin... its always fin arguing with a Dr! Had a quick scan everything looks great- i have been booked in for the csection.. HOWEVER..... i may be moving before then... lol I know i paid klee out for even considering moving so close to the end of a pregnancy... bu ti may be doing the same thing!! Only worse- i will be moving 4 hours away!!!! Looooong story- but basically DH was working a nice solid reliable job here for about a year in a factory.. but he started to not like it- mixed with a rude boss and after we got home from our holiday at xmas time- he quit the nice reliable solid work and went back to fencing- which lead to weed spraying- all out door which he loves.. BUT which means its reliant on weather and other factors. We have been managing- but strugggling a bit with bills etc ever since then- and now that winter has arrived (it comes early here in the south) he just isnt getting enough work.. SO... he was offered a few days work in canberra, where i have family and where we have actually been visitng quite regularly for the last few months... and he is really liking the work. Its out doors, but they can do it in the rain (i am giving a girl explanation here- he digs for pipes with water Hydro Excavation) long hours- good pay, and its very tempting to up and move there....
BUT.. little details like getting out of our lease- finding a house there, getting all our stuff there and having a baby really soon- is very daunting!!! I want to move, but i wish it was a matter of clicking my fingers and having just miraculously happen!! There are so many little details, but i know we will have support and help to do it all, so basically DH is in canberra at the moment for two weeks to try the job out, see how he likes it , see how much money we get in the pocket after tax and go from there. So i am home alone with DS for the first time for two weeks!! EEEEKKKK I have to cook dinner!!!! AAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
He is sleeping at the moment- so i am going to sit back and releax abit while i can! Sorry for no personals.. i will try to be a better poster!!! But big hugs and belly rubs to everyone!!!! xoxoxoxoxoxox
KAM - I hear you so so clearly. I am now in my fourth pregnancy since July 08 and still no baby at home. All I can offer is my love and support and some of my philosophies. Despite just having had a rought weekend with anxiety and a very deep sense of foreboding,and wanted to run around screaming like a lunatic.
Despite that, I am generally able to be thankful for and beleive in this pregnancy. Each day I cherish what I have right now which is this baby. I don't focus on the past( what has happened in my journey) nor the future ( what might happen), but I try to focus on today, and it helps me. It's not perfect, but more often than not I am able to cope. I often just lay quietly with my hands on my tum, and repeat, "I beleive".
I hope you can find some happy medium where the fear and anxeity is not the most prominent feeling for you every day, and there are some periods of belief and hope.
I am so so sorry for the loss of your darling angel babies. I wish that you didn't have to experience the terror of bleeding in this pregnancy. It does make it so much harder to cope. I know its hard, but this pregnancy is not your previous pregnancies. This pregnancy is different, even if that is all you can believe in.... it's something.
Sending you my strength and love.
Laney - HA! I have been asking about you in another thread. I am ROTFL now, always wondering where you were and what was happening. Huge Dory moment for me. Anyway, glad I found you again. I know you're scared sweetie, big hugs. What dates are those next scans?
Beata - So good to hear things are going well with our young hero Cameron. He is looking mighty cute too I have to say. You know I think I might reactivate my ticker. I just have to remember once I have done it to immediately turn it off when I post in the loss and tcc threads.
Kerr - hugs - I don't have much to ofer by way of advice or info, but sending you a big hug.
AFM - well 18 weeks tomorrow! I have been at home alone with teh fur babies since 7 weeks, so it's amazing to think that I have not been at work for 11 weeks! I don't miss it anymore.
Time seems to inch forward so slowly but its forward progression is inevtiable. I had a bad weekend - as I said to KAM, I had a very palpable sense of foreboding, mostly because there was a decrease in my sensing bubs move. Anyway, come Monday, even though things hadn't really improved I for some reason just felt hapy again and lo and behold, I felt bubs moving like something possessed. I feel proud of myself that I made it through the 3 days, feel a bit battered, but proud because I survived. I am noticing I am a bit more anxious at the moment, but given my history its understandable.
Take care, and belly rubs to you all. I'll get to work on that ticker.
starbright, it sounded like you have been thinking of moving for a while. You sound so happy every time you take a trip to see family. You still have time! I don't know about finding a doctor that you feel comfortable with so close to c-section date. There are a lot of expenses when dealing with a big move. I hope it all works out for you.
Didn't you have DS a bit early? I thought I remember you not making it to your c-section date.
dory, my next scan is on May 17th. My doctor told me that I can have all of my scans done in his office. He doesn't mind if I do not want to see my high risk doctor. That is if this baby keeps growing beautifully.
I was going to ask you if you quit work. Do they have you on bed rest?
hey all, just a quick one, saw my OB on friday, all seems well & OB says she looks like a good sized baby. Looks like i'll be induced about 38/39 weeks, last labour was 1.5 hours & it takes 2 hours to get to the hospital, so OB wants to start me off in hospital.
jlk, so glad that your appt. went well, what a milestone. I just saw your ticker!!!! you are moving right along. I think induction is a good idea! I wouldn't want to have a bub in the car either
JLK - AWESOME!!! I am so happy for you. I agree, start off in hospital - no way would I want the stress of even the risk of a birth in the car. And just imagine having to clean the car up - well you'd be in hossy so that would be one for someone else.
Laney - thought I had replied to you.... sorry about the delay... another Dory moment. I have been off work since 15 Feb on medical advice. I am not on strict bed rest, but I pretty much rest most of the day. I can do some smal things, for which I am thankful for. I am ever mindful that if I do too much I could end up in hossy on strict bed rest and I am hoping to avoid that, but have repared for it nonetheless. Good to see you moving along in your pregnancy. 17th May is not that far away. How are you coping?
AFM - I have bounced back and am not so melancholy, but its a bit surreal at the moment. I keep imagining as if these are my last days/weeks of this pregnancy, and that history will repeat itself. My next scan on 4 May is exactly the same gestation that Sophie was when she entered the world. It will be both nice to have reassurance that things are going well ( if they are) on that day, but it's also a bit scary to, thinking about what might go wrong. I just have a deep sense of foreboding that things will repeat but at the same time I also have a really strong fundmental belief they won't and I vacilate between the two. It's very confusing and tiring, to be honest. How can we feel so many conflicting emotions? It's almost like I am a walking contradiction.
Dory, good luck with your up coming scan. I know very well the feelings that you are having. With Grayson, I just couldn't bring myself to believe that he was coming home. I felt positive that I was doing the right thing with the blood thinner injections. It was impossible to get over the feeling that I was going to lose him at any moment. It did get a tiny bit easier when I could feel him moving all day. If he even stopped for a second I was poking at him to get him to move more.
I am very surprised that I have been coping much better this time around. It does help that Grayson keeps me very busy. I think that it also helps that I am not suffering from the depression that I had since Parker's death. I do find myself getting a bit emotional this week. I think that is because Shelby's 2nd angel day and Parker's 3rd are both very soon. I do have my moments when I feel like a crazy lady again too. I think that is because in 6 weeks I have my big scan. The scan when they told me that Parker and Shelby were not doing well. I am trying hard to stay positive. My high risk doctor always told me that the odds are in my favor so I am trying to tell myself that.
Dory and Laney, so glad that everything is going well with you ladies. 19 weeks Dory, woohoo!
Jlk, yay for your OB app. going well!
Hello to everyone else, sorry don't have much energy to post. Still struggling with the sleep deprivation, but getting better. My wee man was 6 weeks yesterday, where does the time go??? Feel like a zombie today
Just another quickie from me.. the move is well and truely on.. DH has been working full time now signed all the forms, and we are staying in canberra with relatives frantically house hunting!! Its all happening! I have also made contact with the antenatal clinic here at a hospital called Calvary and i see them in a week to book in so they know i am here. I also still have my other booking back in VIC just in case!! CRAZY TIMES!!!
DOES ANYONE KNOW OF ANYONE RENTING A HOUSE OUT IN CANBERRA?? LOL I am madly getting references together and applying for everything and anything i can!!!
Baby wise- i am feeling good- belly is expanding at a rapid rate and she is moving like crazy!! I m being too busy to think any bad crazy thoughts, and i will admit i feel lot better being in the same town as a hospital!!
Sorry to be so slack in here- my thoughts are with you all and hopefully once i am settled down i will be a better poster
Take care everyone!!!
Big Belly Rubs and tickles to all the new bubbas!!
Starbright - you sound so positive and organised. I hope you find some digs soon. I don't have any Canberra connections.....
KAM - how are you doing?
Laney - You are doing so well. I can so feel your fear and axneity leading up to the next few mnths, so many dates of significance. Thankyou for your kind and understanding words - they helped a lot. I think itsprobably good to be distracted by Grayson. I find when I am distracted it is easier to cope. That's why weekends are so good for me.
Beata - Oh wow, our little knight in shining armour - aka Cameron - is 6 weeks old, already! It must be just so amazing, sleep deprivation and all. How long between feeds at the mo? Is he getting more into something that might look like a routine, even if only 3 hours between feeds?
JLK - I just re read your post and it struck me. Your ob is talking about labour! How awesome.
Hi to anyone else I have missed. I am a bit spacey today. Really hungry at the moment, but don't know what I feel like eating. Oh only 5 more sleeps til my scan on Tuesday.
HI ladies, fantastic news for dory and jlk getting past and close to some milestones, thinking of you girls
sorry for the lack of personals, but wanted to ask starbright, have you got any tips for me on handling it all so well? we are in almost the same boat ie moving, and I feel like i am in meltdown today. we just sold our house on the weekend and may have bought another one (just waiting for confirmation) but everybody has something to say about me moving to the country and its doing my head in, do they not know i am hopefully having a baby in 6 weeks and to talk to me about if and when this bub comes home, cause i really don't need this stress. add on top i had a scan today, dr was happy with scan, but from last scan to this one bubs has dropped about 15% in growth, when really he should have picked up shouldn't he?! oh i don't know, just very teary, maybe its just been a big week, sorry for the vent, but just needed to get it out.
Hi all. I have been missing in action for ages. Apologies, just slack.
Klee, I honestly think that a lot of the later scans where they tell you about the baby's size etc are not accurate. I am always hearing about women saying that their baby was too big to deliver and had a CS and then the baby is born and it is normal size and weight. It sounds like your bub is going well and surely by this stage some are smaller than others - just like when they are born? Anyway I know you must be worried, but I am sending you lots of hugs and positive thoughts. I often feel massively worried after a scan even when the Ob says it is all good, it is like I don't fully believe him. Don't push yourself too much with the move, let others do the lifting and cleaning for you!
Starbright, wow what a move. I hope it all goes very smoothly.
Hi to everyone else, will have to read back through to see what is happening.
As for me, 3 weeks to go! I had an ob appt on Tuesday and the baby was looking good. My ob thinks I will not go early based on Anna being so overdue. I do not want to go too early but anytime from 39 weeks would be good. The baby is a good kicker so that is all very reassuring.
Hi Ladies
So for no personals...so stuffed and feeling huge...had last check up wtih Ob yesterday...bub doing great...measuring 2 weeks ahead so should be a good size...feeling so uncomfortable and getting no sleep...2 weeks till c section if nothing happens before...can't wait to have this little one safely earthside Have a great weekend everyone xxx
thanks katiegirl, wow 3 weeks to go, my goodness thats gone quick. hope this boy doesn't keep you waiting too long like his sister, will be thinking of you over the next few weeks, hope you get the labour you want.
thanks for your words yesterday think just the state i was in yesterday, if they had of said this baby's going to be huge, i probably would have broke down too! just felt a bit overwhelmed after a big week and it finally all got to me, feeling better now and a bit more sane, sorry again for the outburst ladies
we start weekly ctg's from next week, which is apparently a better indicator than the scan that all is ok, so something else to help me through yaya
Ellie and Katiegirl! You are both so close. I can't believe how fast the time went. I hope that my pregnancy goes just as smooth and FAST!
Klee, The ctg's did put my mind at ease. They did cause a little stress a couple of times but what doesn't for us. I think being 15% smaller is a normal error rate in ultrasounds. If your ctg's look good and he is moving well then he is happy in there.
starbright, you sound very happy about the move. Remember to let everyone else to the work! Being close to family is going to be so great. I am really jealous.
beata, I think things got a bit easier around month 3. I was only getting up once a night. By month 4 Grayson was sleeping all night. I hope that you are just as lucky.
dory, can't wait to read about your great scan.
Okay! Who told the crazy lady that it was okay to visit me?! I decided to get out my old doppler even though I knew that it wasn't working well. It took a fall from the table when I was 9 months pregnant with Grayson and did not worked right after. All I get is static. I keep thinking that it is because there is no HB. I can't help it. I did order a new one but it is taking forever to get here. sigh
Laney, yay for the doppler arriving finally!! I have to admit I got one too, when I was pg with Cameron, every now and then it would come out when he wasn't particularly active...did my head in but it was always re assuring to hear the heart beat. Cameron is waking me up 1 to 2 times during the night. My DF usually does the last feed before bed at around 10.30-11 pm (we're on formula now) so I try going to bed by 9.30 pm. I then get up at around 2-2.30 am and then again around 5-5.30 am. 2 days ago, he slept from 2.30 am until 7 am, I panicked and thought something happened to him only to find him snoring away in his basinette! lol.
I'm glad all is going well in your pg!!
Dory, we have a routine, sort of!! Cam has been able to tell day from night from early on, he always feeds with his eyes closed and half asleep during the night and fully awake and alert during the day. We are always hoping to feed him around 10 pm, 2 am, 6 am, 10 am etc, so far it hasn't been too far off that. He was very unsettled most of this week due to his 6 week growth spurt but he's really improved since yesterday so I'm hoping all is back to normal. He's also begining to smile which is just awsome!
I'll be thinking of you on Tuesday hun, I hope all goes well for you at your scan!!
Klee, wow a lot is happening with you hun!! Don't let these people get to you about moving to the country, everyone will have an opinion and sometimes it's not what we want to hear! I'm sure the move will go well and you'll enjoy your new house/surroundings. As for the bub, don't worry too, as Katiegirl said they often get the size wrong! The weekly ctgs will definitely help the sanity!
Ellie, I feel your pain!! lol. In the last 2 or 3 weeks of my pg, I was so over the pelvic/hip pain and being unable to sleep! When the bub came I was like, put him back in so I can have the crappy but long sleep!! ha ha. Just can't win hey? Can't wait for you litle one to arirve hun!
Katiegirl, wow 3 more weeks! Time has certainly flown by, can't wait for you bub to arrive safely too hun!
Starbright, yay to lots of movement from bub!
Jlk, hope all is well with you hun
AFM, things are improving slowly. Cameron is a lot more responsive to me and DF, he makes these cute little noises and is using his arms and legs heaps when he's excited about something. He has got the most cutest facial expressions ever!! Sometimes I have a good laugh, especially when he coughs and farts all at the same time and scares himself! ha ha ha.
Hope everyone has a great weekend, sorry if I missed anyone!
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