Pregnancy after Stillbirth/Recurrent Miscarriage or Late Loss March/April 2010

[Ellie]

Thanks so much for your wonderful support ladies! I am at the can't leave the house stage...can't focus on anything other than bub and Miss A....phone off the hook...terrified of something happening...or catching some horrible bug...only 4 more sleeps...OMG!!!

[~MummaBear~]

Hey guys!

Sorry i have been MIA for a while. I am having some issues and i just couldnt bring myself to post in a pregnancy section.
For the last 12 days i have been bleeding and i am so stressed out about it. I have had 2 trips to the ED and 2 scans and no one can tel me why i am bleeding or even where it is coming from. the good news is Bub seems very happy and healthy in there! And that does put my mind at ease... but only until i see the blood again. Anyway sorry about tthe all me post... i have been reading posts but there is WAY too many to catch up on!

Oh just before i go....
Good luck Ellie!!!! XOXO

[dory]

Mummyof4 - of sweetie - sending you big hugs through this very stressful time. I know what it feels like to bleed ( perhaps not for 12 days) but I understand it is just so terrifying. Sending you lots of strength and prayers.

How are along are you now?

HUGS

[~MummaBear~]

Thanks Dory. I am 10 weeks now.. feels like it is dragging on forever. the bleeding is really weird. i dont bleeda t all during the day but about 8pm at night it starts lasts for a couple of hours and then stops again till the next night. And even thought i am expecting it, it is horrible to see it and it scares me still every night

Wow just noticed you have a ticker!!! Looking good!!

[dory]

M04 - that is weird timing. I would almost be tempted to go to sleep for those hours til it was all over ( I kno you would still see it happened) but being a busy mum no doubt there is no chance. My ob always recommends rest. Says there's no hard and fast evidence but anectdotally, it seems to help. It helped me during the times I bled, but resting also gives you way too much time to be alone with your thoughts.... I am a case in point.

I finally got around to enabling the ticker. I have done it today with trepdiation though because it feels as if I am not honouring my angels, as when in post in the loss forums I have to turn off my signature. But its ok here. I decided i needed to try and more publically embrace where I am, and maybe the reminder the ticker gives me will help.

Is Mr I at prep or school? Are Mr H and Miss J at home?

10 weeks feels like you are so far along doesn't it? Big hugs, and still sending positive thoughts your way.

[Laney]

mo4, I am so sorry that you have to go through this. Extra worry is the last thing that any of us need. I had bleeding with Grayson but it only lasted a few days here and there but it was all day. Do you have another ultrasound scheduled to check on bub? Try to rest hun. I know that is harder said than done.

beata, it is good to give your body a little time to recover. It is also great to have time to enjoy your little one. They get big very fast. I missed my pregnant belly as soon as Grayson was born. I can't wait to be able to feel this little bub wiggle around.

Ellie, 3 more sleeps!

Dory, It is nice to read that you have been feeling good and that you don't have an issue with depression. I did take meds on and off and I have gone to talk to an infant loss counsellor. Medication makes me feel physically horrible and I hated talking to a counsellor. I found that BellyBelly was always more help and support than any of the other things. I really didn't know how bad the depression was or that I even had it until it was gone. I think that is why I am really trying to keep a watch on it now. It is hard to tell what is worry/anxiety about being pregnant and what is depression. I have never had to deal with it before.
on a happier note, I love your ticker. More than half way there! I am so glad that you have decided to post one! Do you have another scan next week?

AFM, Next Monday AM is my scan. You will all be sleeping by the time I post about it though. My in-laws are coming over to watch Grayson. I really hope that we are able to find out the sex. We found out that Grayson was a boy around the same time.

[dory]

Laney - I had forgotten you were in PA, USA and was wondering why you were "posting so late". Ha! Here I am up at the witching hour. I fell asleep in front of the tele during a show I really wanted to see the end of. Blah, and woke up about 11.30pm bright as a button. Oh well, I might go readmy book now and snuggle with DH who is an night owl. He's just coming to bed at midnight! I have already had a good 3 hours sleep. Oh well.

No more big scans for me. I might however ask for one at my obstetricians. He says I can have one any time I want for reassurance.

I hope bubs is cooperative at your scan and you get to discover whether you have a little boy or girl miracle on their way. We didn't want to know. Not sure why, just we don't. But I imagine its exciting knowing......

Ellie - I still am so excited. I hope you are able to get some sleep and rest..... take care.

Anyway, good night. Sweet dreams.

[~MummaBear~]

M04 - that is weird timing. I would almost be tempted to go to sleep for those hours til it was all over ( I kno you would still see it happened) but being a busy mum no doubt there is no chance. My ob always recommends rest. Says there's no hard and fast evidence but anectdotally, it seems to help. It helped me during the times I bled, but resting also gives you way too much time to be alone with your thoughts.... I am a case in point.

I finally got around to enabling the ticker. I have done it today with trepdiation though because it feels as if I am not honouring my angels, as when in post in the loss forums I have to turn off my signature. But its ok here. I decided i needed to try and more publically embrace where I am, and maybe the reminder the ticker gives me will help.

Is Mr I at prep or school? Are Mr H and Miss J at home?

10 weeks feels like you are so far along doesn't it? Big hugs, and still sending positive thoughts your way.

I have tried sleepoing throught hat time but when i wake up it is even worse cause i end up with a massive lot of blood running down my leg cause it has all just kinda pooled inside and waited for me to stand up iykwim.
I know what you mean i spend most of my day laying on the couch and all i can do is think and most of the time it makes me cry
MrI is in Pre primary ( 5 full days a week) and MR H is in Kindy ( 2 half days, 1 full day a week) so that give me a good break... the little miss is always home but she sleeps so much that you dont even know she is here sometimes ROFL


Will be back later! kindy pick up!! lol

[KAM]

MO4 - I'm not sure if this helps or not ( I hope it does) but I bled for 6 weeks with this baby. A 2 week bled at 5wks pregnant and a 4 week bleed at 10wks, I constantly bled for the entire time so that's a little different, But baby is still with us at 28wks and there was no reason for the bleeding. So hopefully it will stop and everything will be ok

Ellie - Good Luck

cmeglles - welcome

AFM - 28wks today, I had my GTT and yet another Anti-D injection. It's getting harder, I keep thinking these where some of the last things we got to do for Isabel. I have this feeling of inevitability that something is going to go wrong "it has every other time so why not this time too." It probably doesn't help that the other night when Hubby was rubbing my tummy he accidentally called this baby Isabel, I didn't know what to do and all he could manage was to repeatedly say sorry and then go and 'hide'. My psychologist cancelled my appointment for tomorrow and I'm starting to get so busy with work and appointments that it's getting harder to see her anyway. Oh and my doctor is going away for the 3 weeks before I'm due so I have no idea who will be looking after me and baby let alone delivering is baby decides to come early. On a brighter note though I have a growth and wellness U/S next Tuesday, so hopefully everything's ok.

[CharlieB]

Hi everyone ,

Thanks for the welcomes

cmeglles - nice to see you in this thread, we'll be due about the same time all going well. Hope your little bean keeps behaving.

Dory - I love your ticker, it's nice to see! I might be game enough by about 30 weeks! Thanks for the advice, I agree that one day at a time is best. I am so much more aware of all the things that can potentially go wrong that it can be overwhelming. I'm glad your fur babies are looking after you, mine are lifesavers at the moment! When one of mine was sitting over my lower belly purring last night I was hoping that all those soothing feelings were making it through to the bub! Might counteract some of my worrying! Have you every seen that TV commercial where the little boy collects all those warm and fuzzy feelings in the glass jars? (if not you are going to think I am a big weirdo!) Anyways, I was thinking it would be nice to have a jar full of those incredible feelings you had last week, and could open it whenever you needed to over the next few months!

mo4 - I'm really sorry about the bleeding, l'm sure you coud do without any worry this pregnancy. Glad that the bub seems to be healthy, I'm crossing everything that it stays that way

Laney - I'm sorry that you feel you are withdrawing a bit. Hope that the feeling is only temporary. I'm going to keep seeing the councellor that I saw over the time we lost our son throughout this pregnancy. I'm also really worried that the anxiety could get the best of me. Good luck with the upcoming scan, hopefully some good news will help you feel a bit stronger

KAM - big hugs to you, I hope that your scan goes well and it makes you feel more positive about things

Ellie - hope you're feeling ok and getting lots of rest. Good luck!!!


Beata - how did Cameron's appt go? hope he is still getting more comfortable after the thrush.

AFM - 6 weeks now, can't belive how time is draaaaaging along! I had an HCG level done at 4.5 weeks which was 121, had another 7 days later which was 1650 or so. So that seems to be rising ok. My dating scan is on the 19th, I am praying that I will see a little heartbeat!!

Take care
xx