:hugs:

firstly do you have a sound and movement monitor, this has got me thru many many moments of panic when he is sleeping as for the car yeah I know that feeling well, I have stopped pulled over got out checked jack when travelling alone

secondly I dont think it would hurt for you to see a counsellor you would probably benifit from being able to talk to someone not prsonally involved, did you see a souncellor after losing caitlin

anyway :hugs: if you ever need to chat feel free to buzz me