Hi Michelle
I don't know if it is normal... but, I am doing the exact same thing, and I don't care.
I know I am very very protective of Harrison because of everything I experienced with Noah... Harrison is definitely my special child, because he made it here after his brother didn't... and because with Noah, he was given to us after we wanted him for so long, then he was taken away... I sometimes feel like I am playing the waiting game for something like this to happen to Harrison... I know in myself that it is totally irrational... but, I can't help it. I am very fussy with whom I allow to hold Harrison... only then, it is after I have checked out where they are going to be holding him (eg - on a verandah is out of the question)
I wake soooooo many times during the night, to check on Harrison, and, I look over him, make sure he is breathing... then I go back to bed, only to do it again in about 2 hrs time.
You're not alone honey... but, it does get easier with time