Afternoon Ladies

After the past couple of weeks laying low on this site.
i have come to suprisingly announce that i am already preg with #2.

I know it should be a HAPPY time for me and my DP but i cant seem to beat myself up over it.
my LO is only close to 5 months old and well me and DP had a bit of a woopsie on our anniversary, the reason im beating myself up or even scared to post this announcement is because i feel guilty that there is women who try and try to concieve and sadly it can take them months,years and cost a lot of money. and well here i am 5 months post natal and pregnant already.
my sister has been ttc for over a year now with absolutly NO sucess. and just one night for us results in this. Dont get me wrong i am so thrilled to be preg, i just cant seem to find that happy medium with all these thoughts.
I dont by any means want anyone to think i am being insensitive by saying this about my pregnancy, i guess im just to scared to be happy and enjoy it for the thought of hurting others feelings.
My poor sister is going to be devistated.. i have absolutly NO idea how im going to tell my family and friends.


I dont know what im looking for when writing this, it just feels better when i get it off my chest.