Hi Lozzy_mac,

Thank you so much for this... It really helps to talk and listen to others going through the same thing. And you said something vital - The secrecy about it makes things just that little bit hard. I have an aunt visiting and really stressing about the hosting duties, as she doesn't know about the situ yet. Right now, I have planned to take it just a step at a time without planning too much. And every now and then, I feel totally fine... and then out of no where the moods strike. Yes good idea about mentioning to doc too. Can't WAIT to tell everyone so that I can share the feelings, good + bad.
I have told my mom n dad, but they are so lousy - like doesn't help the least! So, that also angers me... it's nothing new - they've always been that way. However hubby is extremely helpful. Thanks again. Past few hours has been good - I have been working and been feeling energetic.