My phobia didn't come about from my pregnancy or birth... When i was 17 i had a very bad fall off a horse and messed my right arm up quite bad. The trauma from having my mum fight the surgeon to not amputate my arm and do what he had to, to keep my arm. And then being placed in the dementure ward as the adolescent ward was closed for maintenance and seeing and hearing things that haunt me even now. So when it came to me falling pregnant and the thought of having to stay in hospital made me nervous and anxious.

I am fine if i have my mum or my DP with me but when i am by myself even for 10 mins i tense up and just want to run away. I don't know if ill get over my phobia/fear. I have always made sure i didnt have to stay in hospital for long, after DD was born one night was fine for me and i wanted to go home.

I agree with counselling to talk about your feelings and talking to your midwife to ensure what happened before doesnt happen again.

all the best.