Sara its not silly to mourn a baby so small. We told people as soon as we found out at 4 weeks. Your heart can't help but plan and dream when you realise you have a little bean in there. I think still being in shock sounds totally rational also, its such a big thing to process, that I'm sure there is part of you trying to hide away from it all. I hope things start happening soon for you so that you can start to process what is happening physically and emotionally. Thinking of you alot. You really are a special person from what I have learnt so far and I pray there are a thousand little angels holding you tight through this really unfathomable journey.