I've come home from work today as I think I'm miscarrying. I tried to work but I could not get my mind of it & was very emotional. I'm 5 weeks 4 days and was thrilled to bits that I was finally pregnant. I could hardly believe it and did 3 seperate tests over a week just to make sure. I had my first appointment with the doctor scheduled for tomorrow.

I started to spot yesterday which then increased to light bleeding. This morning it had become a little heavier and in the last hour I have passed some small clots plus a long stringy thing (sorry if that's TMI). I'm 40 so I know the odds are more likely that I am miscarrying and not having a near mis. I had an early miscarriage 10 years ago where I bled lightly for a couple of weeks from 4 weeks so of course I'm thinking the worst. There's no pain but there wasn't any last time either.

I can't see the doctor until 3 so I have two more hours to kill and I'm doing my best to try to keep positive and keep my mind off it but am finding that damn near impossible. My partner is at work and is in a new job so I can only talk to him when he is on his breaks and as only our parents know of the pregnancy (he couldn't keep his mouth shut as he was sooooo excited about the news) I don't really have anyone to talk to about this (and I don't want to stress them).

Anyway, I'm just filling in time here, hoping for the best but expecting the worst.