Ist pregnancy need support & advice!

[rae]

I think my hormones are making me unreasonable! I am having a total freak out. I have just been looking through the dates of my last 5 months AF arrivals. They are just all over the place and I can't help feeling that a few of the very early or late AF arrivals were actually miscarriages that I didn't pick up on. I didn't POAS every cycle, if I AF arrived I often didn't. I know I did a few times, I wish I had have written this stuff down!

I got a BFN on the day I thought AF was due. A week later, as I discussed in my first post, I had heavy bleeding and a week or so after that a BFP! So-- with my levels being so low, and me just freaking out looking at information about what is happening to the baby if I am about 6 or 7 weeks I am starting to wonder if maybe I did concieve on 6th May, not 12 April. Could a HPT pick up a pregnancy after only 5 days? It doesn't seem possible, but my levels are so low they indicate earlier pregnancy.

I am so confused and looking back through my AF arrivals, I had a similar thing happen after Christmas and my next few cycles are between 31and 10 days, when I was always 24 for years. So I am worried that I will lose this pregnancy in a few weeks time! I wouldn't have known if any of the other late cycles were miscarriages which means this one may end up the same way!

*sigh* I think I have way too much spare time on my hands!

[rae]

I am feeling better now. These hormones are quite something! I spoke to DH who was so sweet and reassuring and very pleased that I will be having a dating ultrasound next week to clear up the dates.

I think after I saw a picture of a foetus at 6 or 7 weeks I started freaking out. I had no idea they were so complex and advanced. I was imagining a mass of cells-- or something. It suddenly became impossible in my mind that I had one of those and that I'd keep it! Hee.

Anyway. Back to calm.