Thanks guys ... you've made me feel eternally better - i don't feel so 'alone' now. i had a big chat to BW on weekend (after my bawling and unreasonableness) and he knows what's going on so he's more aware of it now.

I did have a laugh at a couple of you crying about the olympics - almost as bad as me finding my 'favourite' (i didn't even know i had a fave) waterbottle not in the fridge with cold water in it! And i CRIED! I realise my ridiculousness and it's funny afterwards but at the time it's devastating!

A girlfriend suggested a baby journal to document my feelings as an outlet and also a record - so i can show the little munchkin the torture we went thru.

congrats on you all too.