Mrs Hendo, Im so sorry to read you have had to endour the pain of loosing 9 angels, that is so much for a woman to go through. I am sending the biggest cyber hugs to you.

Are you sure the doctors have tested you for everything, there is a great thread on BB that can give you an idea of the tests you should be asking for, in case they have missed some.

Would you like me to post a link, so when your ready you can read it ?