I just found out im pregnant, waiting to see the doctors yet but i do take 7 tests as a yes While we were trying i was more than ok with #2 but now that i actually am, im really scared! My dad has lung cancer hes in hospy getting radiation/chemo. Will i be allowed anywhere near him? Ds wants/needs my attention 24/7, he still wakes at night to come into bed with us, perfectly fine by me btw lol but lately hes been waking me up by laying on top of me kicking his legs into my belly. I asked dp to put him back in his cot lastnight but he forgot. I slept about 16 hours a day when i was pregnant with ds, how in the world am i going to get any rest! Were up at 6, bed at 7. With 1, two hour sleep and 1, one hour one but its starting to look like he wants to drop the last one. Gosh this looks like its going to be long lol. Im not worried so much about cost because i WILL perserve with bf no matter how much it hurts, i WILL join the aba and find a good lactation consultant. Im worried about birth because when i left hospy the ob said "good luck trying to find someone who will support another natural birth" I understand ds was very sick, seriously what are the chances of that happening again. I want to go through birth centre but he said id be high risk from then on. He had shoulder distocia, didnt have enough surfactant on his lungs was in icu for 2 weeks and scn for 1. Pushing stage was 2 hours, he was distressed because he was stuck. Episiotomy and suction. I also dont trust what the ob said because he reckons that i make babies too big for me. Ds was 8 pound 2, not exactly huge. My best friend is tiny with the smallest waist and she had a baby who was 10 pound 8. Ugh im rambling now, no need to reply really i just needed to get it out.