Clare, your thoughts and feelings are so understandable as what you have been told is very daunting. I can imagine why you would feel better about knowing what you are facing than not. It is also so true that pregnant women very often have strong instincts or feelings about the baby, particularly if something seems amiss. I wish you all the best for the CVS on Wednesday and want to tell you that whatever decision you make and whichever course this pregnancy takes, I hope you will always feel that you can find support here.
Thankyou again for all your support, I really didn't know what to expect when I posted for the first time especially on such a taboo topic, but you have all been wonderful.
I have been doing alot of soul searching today, and with a few tears, I really am ok with this. Like I said I really didn't feel right about the pg from the start and this is just confirming my beliefs.
I know my odds are still pretty good, I mean you wouldn't back a horse that was running 98 to 1 would you, (with odds like that you would expect the horse to only have 1 leg! lol)
But with the additional bleeding I am not too confident.
In a way, I sort of feel that if I have the baby with a tri, it lowers the risk for other women in my risk group, you know take one for the team. Sort of doing them a favour. I already have one beautiful cherub, I wouldn't trade her for the world, and hopefully others can experiance that level of love too.
I know Wednesday will be an emotional day, so too will be the day we get the results but until then the only way I can cope with this is to pretend I have lost this baby already. Pessamistic I know, but I have felt happier this afternoon dealing with it this way. Hopefully I can be proved wrong.
OK now I am just ranting, will update soon.
Clare
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