Sorry it was a vague initial post.

As of last week I was still .5kg below my pre-pregnancy weight. But I had also put on 3kgs in a fortnight. So since the beginning my pregnancy I have lost 8kgs, but then put it back on, but Im still below my pre pregnancy weight.
I was scared to think what would happen if I put on more than 2kgs. Then I find out that was just a scare tatic to get me to lose weight. Problem is that this enitre pregnancy I have focused on my weight, guilted myself for enjoying something I have craved. Last fortnnight I decided to enjoy my pregnancy and I gained weight and got the look of hell from my ob. Mind you I still have 20kgs to gain before they send me to the other hospital. And I have 2 weeks left of this pregnancy.
I have done so much hating of myself through out this pregnancy because of my weight, and its caused issues, I have not let myself enjooy being pregnant.

It worries me that so many drs are focusing on this idea of weight gain, yet one of the big indicators of AND is lack of weight gain, and yet the medical profession's insistence on focusing on weight is creating a situation where more and more women have to be at risk of AND. That scares me.