Totally understand hun. For me I was absolutely devastated that I didn't VBAC, I was terrified of surgery and still feel a bit ill thinking about it all, however in the whole scheme of things, it wasn't too bad. I had no complications from the surgery, caring for my then 17mth old was actually fine (although I had DH home for 7 weeks) I was able to hold J in recovery and fed him well back in our room. I kept up pain meds so that I could be on my feet faster and really it wasn't that bad overall. My existing issues are with a failed vbac not so much the cs itself.

I have to fly - DH needs the lappy but wanted to pop in and give you a and reassure you that it can be ok if it comes to that. Back later to talk induction with you!