My first two pregnancies i was so impatient i always tested early and got an extremely faint BFP...this one was close to AF because it was a surprise and it was so positive it came up within two seconds and extremely dark

I was the same after my loss...i had a missed mc at 9 weeks..we tried straight away and i ended up being completely obsessed....every month down broke my heart...it took 4/5 months...i ended up having accupunture and drank this tea she gave me and was using sticks for O and making hubby drive down to my work even to go for a drive when it was time lol lol.......so i can sympathise with you....i had to keep my mind occupied.......i wish you all the best and hope you get a BFP real soon..and just keep coming on and talking about it...talking helps