I want to have a baby shower. I have never had one and i kinda feel like i have missed something by not having one.

However, this is baby #4. Do you think that's silly or that people will not come because it isn't our first bub?

Not only do i feel like im missing out but i have thrown all baby stuff out (cause we weren't expecting #4 to show up!) so it isn't like i have everything i need, cause i have nothing right now bar a bassinette and a few pieces of clothing.

I would organise it myself cause i know no one else will. But i don't want no one to show up either.

It'd just be nice to have one day of relaxing and pampering... *sigh*