Oh I can completely understand!! With DS it was wonderful and exciting (scary at the start), DD we had too many stress's in our life and DH and I hardly talked!! He only got interested towards the end and we shared an amazing water birth....... Just found out that we are pregnant with number 3 and we are both stoked and plan to communicate more with each other and enjoy it as this will be our last buba....
Could you try talking DH about how you are feeling? Could maybe -if possible you and DH go away for the weekend and rekindle the excitement and magic of growing a buba??

Don't be hard on yourself beautiful it will happen xox