After desperately wanting a second girl and getting a boy, I was very surprised to find myself desperately wanting my last pregnancy to be a boy, so that he would have a little mate. I'd always seen myself the mother of girls, and yet here I was, wanting the opposite lol.
Same as DSs pregnancy I decided not to find out the sex at the morphology scan as I didn't want to have a moments disappointment towards my baby. I know other people say that knowing makes them prepared and more able to come around to the idea, but that didn't feel right for me. However, during the scan I saw for myself what gender baby was. I kept it to myself for the longest time. I gave her her name and that made her more real to me.

Some people told me I should be grateful for a healthy baby. She was my seventh pregnancy. I'm all too aware of the miracle that is a healthy baby. In the end I'm not disappointed. Not like I thought I might be. But I was very fearful of my own possible feelings.