I need your support and prayer for the next few days

[Honeybee]

Big and lots and lots of for Flicker

xxx

[Fleur]

[rufalina]

thinking of you still.

[mako]

Beema Just wanted to check on you and Flicker today I hope you managed to talk to and see your Ob hun

[Jahzara]

and

xoxo

[*Beema*]

Thankyou everyone

Went out for dinner with the girls last night and it really took my mind of the bleeding, we had some wonderful chats and plenty of laughs. so it was good to just escape for a while, even if I did feel pretty crap on the inside....

I am still bleeding today, but still brown stuff, and I can feel it sitting there, but no freshes gushes, just consistent. Called my OB's office today, and spoke to the MW just to let them know what was happening, and my OB is at a conference for today and the next two days. I had to update the MW as she didn't do the actual check in paperwork, she had seen me the first time I went in, so I had to update her on the loss of the twin, rupturing of the second sac, additional scan, cervix info etc. I also explained the losing of what I think are bits of the plug, which was the precursor this the current bleed, and that I did lose pieces with Nakita, but we didn't get to test as she arrived before I had the chance.

So they spoke to my OB at lunch time and I have just had a call back, I have to go and see her @ 11:45am Thursday at the other practice based in a hospital. She doesn't want to wait until Monday/Tuesday (can't remember which) when I was booked in for another scan. So I can assume that she is probably thinking the same as me or similar in relation to the cervix. the positives that I am taking from this are that we have some clues to go with, we aren't flying blind as such, every little clue will hopefully help us, and I think my OB want's to really understand what is happening with my body and how we can hopefully prolong this pregnancy.

I'm doing ok, just really feeling like it is all a bit beyond my control and I just have to go with the "flow" (excuse the pun) as such. So I will keep plodding along for the next few days and we will see what Thursday holds....

Thanks for your support, that cruisy pregnancy better not be too far away, and if it is not, well such is life and we just go on and face each challenge as it comes. If I let it comsume me then I don't believe it will help either Flicker or myself, so while I might pour my heart and fears out here, it helps me day to day to deal with it all

[Jewel]

[thepixie]

Vic, still here virtually holding your hand!
hoping the time goes super-quick until Thursday and that it is all plain sailing from there

[feeb]

Hugs hun.

Sticky vibes for flicker
xoxox

[Cassius2]

am wishing thursday to arrive soon for you babe, i can imagine that not much sleep is happening atm xx

[Fleur]

Beema, thinking of you & sending lots of sticky vibes to Flicker

[Sally2]

Hang in there Flicker and Mummy

[Lisa]

Thinking of you sweetie. Please stay very sticky sweet little Flicker.

[starangelk]

Beema - I am sending you virtual hugs and I just want to say how inspired I am by your positivity and understanding of the effect your mood has on your tiny Flicker.

[Inanna]

Supportive cuddles...

[Elocin]

Just sending some more love and to you xo

[Nettie]

You're very inspiring. What a fantastic attitude you have - I'm very proud of you, for your strength and tenacity!

[mako]

Thinking of you hun and hope little Flicker is doing really well and holding on nice and tight. I hope Thursday comes around really quick for you. You are an amazing woman with a wonderful attitude hun