Today (6pm), as we were leaving PIL's place, I was driving and I could feel either movements or tightenings or both. Tell you what, I understand why they don't suggest driving yourself to the hospital in labour!!

7pm I went to the loo (tmi here!) coz I felt like I really really needed to wee, but there was only a little. But like the other day, there was a weird pulsing kind of feeling 'down there' - feeling kinda heavy too.

So I decided to have a little poke around (coz it feels weird and swollen down there)... This is going to sound wrong, but I inserted my middle finger (and I have stumpy-ish fingers) and at the end where I swear I thought would go further in was a squishy hard wall.

Now I'm freaking out that that's the baby's head and I'll go into labour early! Obviously, I don't think tonight...

But is this normal? (the ticker is wrong) I'm 34 and 5 days pregnant (Wednesday will be 35wks. I'd have thought that bit of distance would have been longer... I mean (and I'm so prudish that I can't even say this properly... ) the method of "delivery" to get pregnant is longer than my finger. Surely he'd have noticed before now. Dh (hopefully) jokes that he'll go get his arthroscope thing from work and have a look up there - it's a bendy torch with a camera on the end so he can see inside car engines. Classy. Anyway, he just said that last time, he didn't feel anything strange.

As a side note - just incase it's relevant - I have to wear a liner for about the last month, coz my knickers are always wet. Today I think I noticed that there was a different colour (like a slight red tinge) to some of it.. but when I wiped there was nothing new. So I'm not too concerned about that. (Midwife had said vaginal mucous increases in the last part of pregnancy)

My freakout is I'm not ready, what the hell is going on!?