Oh Deb - how is Gab's doing? I totally relate to the morbid thoughts. I had a series of weird dreams last night all along the same path and all involving DH. I kept telling myself they were just dreams but had to resist the urge to wake him up and abuse him. Unfortunately, this morning the dreams were still very fresh in my mind and I had a great deal of difficulty in not taking it out on him.
I hope you're ok though hon. Hang in there.

Love MG