Hi Rae,

"i'm really struggling with my suddenly selfish feelings towards this new baby."

First of all you a are on the most un-selfish people i know, sounds like you thinkin more of Ella than yourself so how is that selfish???

Your a strong person rae and you have a loving husband, great family support, great friends and can't forget to mention everyone on BB. Aslong as you keep talking about and sharing the emotions you are feeling then i know you'll be fine.

This new baby is going to bring even more joy to your life and i know everything will be totally fine, both you and bub will be 100% healthy. Remember the doc's know your history so they're going to look after you.

Stay strong and remember you are allowed to have concerns, feelings and emotions about this, to be honest i'd be worried if you didn't.

Luv Amanda