Oh wow! What a situation to be in. You absolutely have to make the right decision for YOU. No one else but YOU. I'm not sure of details but i'm sure there would be some kind of counselling you could go to to help with a decision, just someone to talk it over with? i'm sure if you went to your GP they could refer you to someone??

Take care of yourself. Keep up with BB, there will always be someone here to support you, no matter what your decision is. All the best. xxx