Hi,

I couldn't read and not post, although I haven't experienced what you have, I can understand how you would be feeling pretty anxious about now.
I remember coming up to full term and the baby was all I could think about, so I guess you've got plenty of time on bed rest to be thinking about everything.
I'm not sure where you are located, but is it worth maybe enlisting the help of a doula? Somebody who can provide you with lots of support leading up to and during the birth?
We had a doula with DS2 and DD this year and she was awesome, I just thought that it sounds like you could do with having somebody to who can support you, right now and visit you at home.
Wishing you all the best for the rest of your pregnancy and birth. I hope you have a much better time, this time around.