Tanya I so understand how you are feeling. I deeply wanted a little girl and was so upset. It is hard to be torn between loving the baby you are nurturing and grieving for the one you wanted to have.
I had a scan at 25 weeks partly because I wanted a 4D one and partly because I was holding onto the hope that the sonographer made a mistake. She wasn't wrong and it was confirmed that Caleb was a boy.
Even up to the moment he was born I still was secretly hoping they were both wrong.
I love him to bits and couldn't imagine for a second not having him now.
I still think and hope that one day there will be a little girl for me, but I'm not sure I can go through that all again. I don't think DH can either for that matter.