Well, I went and had an ultrasound yesterday afternoon...

Scan went really well, bub looks happy and healthy. I didn't want to seem to anxious to find out the gender so I waited until the sonographer said something so I could slip in a hint. So when she spoke of the bladder I asked if you could tell the gender at this stage, and she said, yes, but bub has it's leg tightly clamped together. So I'll have another look at the end of the scan.
Anyway she went over hte area a few times and I knew what i was looking at and said, "looks like a girl".
She sort of smiled and said, "it does look like it, but not totally sure, we'll have another look when you come back in a few weeks".

So looks like my intuition was right... I kept imagining hearing, "it's a boy", but I knew as soon as the scan started it wasn't to be Oh well.

When I got to the car I had a big cry, can't help it. I tried so hard, I feel like a failure. I know I am happy bub is healthy, but I feel a little disconnected, I know it'll change... eventually, I am still feeling VERY down about it today and I didn't sleep very much last night. ATM I am having a but of trouble with the idea.

Wato is fine with it, and is even finding it a little hard to understand where I am coming from. I guess I was the one who would have like a little boy most.

Tanya