Number 5 was a bit of an emotional rollercoaster for us. We'd already fiished our family and were talking vasectomy! DH had just taken a job as well as running his own biz to cover the bills and even then it was a struggle. I hated every moment of that dark tiny townie. I was so resigned to the family I had, I didn't bond with the baby I was carrying at all.

Somehow, it all worked itself out. DH is back to just his business. We got a big beautiful house. I cant imagine how I could not have been head over heels with Harry from the very second he was conceived, and we are celebrating number 6..

The kind of love you gather in such a big family can pull you through some of the toughest times. I don't doubt for a second that you will find a way to smile through every day.