Not sure where to post this but......

[MummaSue]

.... I POAS yesterday. And for the first time in my adult life was a tad relieved to see the single line.

I've been feeling sick as a dog the past few days and wondered if it might be pregnancy. At the end of the day, it would be absolutely AMAZING (and probably a miracle) if I was pregnant but I got scared. I feel that I'm not coping all that well with one baby (at times), never mind having another one so soon.

My LTTTC head was wishing for me to be pregnant but my new mum head was screaming noooooooooo, not another baby so sooooooon!

Does that make me a bad person?




Sue xxx

[~ Zarava Flutterby ~]

hun, that does NOT make you a bad person at all, i found out i was PG with DD2 when Dd1 was 7mths old.. i cried and cried and cried.. literally for 2hrs straight.

We all have our doubts and it's ok to be scared, i think it's onyl natural.. enjoy your LO while you can, take each day, month and year as it comes.... big

[MummaSue]

Thanks hun. There is always someone here who understands

XXX

[~ Zarava Flutterby ~]

Yes there is, neither of my girls were planned so i don't know about the whole TTC journey but i KNOW how hard it can be for people, in my mind i think "what will be will be" if it's meant to be that you have 2 so close together then thats whats meant to happen, no matter how scary it seems you adjust and TBH i wouldn't change it for the world now.. BUT at that point i was so so scared and it was daunting to think about... it doesn't make it any less meaningful now... just makes me more human.

[willow5]

Of course it doesn't make you a bad person!

[MummaSue]

Yeah, I am a firm believer in everything happening for a reason.

I also felt hugely guilty (thinking that if I was pregnant) because DD took so long to get here (just under 6 years) that we really want to enjoy her for a bit before we even think about doing IVF again (which we're not even 100% sure we will).

AARRHH, parent guilt hey?

I am soooo my own worst enemy!

[Manhattan]

Big hugs Sue

You are not a bad person at all! Mothering is sooooooooooo hard, and your DD is only 5 months old. So dont you feel guilty, enjoy every minute with your DD, and when and if the time is right to ttc again, you will know.