Sorry in advance for the me me me post, just feeling really awful at the moment.

I must be next on the list, but nothing happening!!!!

40 weeks today, prelabour contractions for 2 weeks now. The midwife tried to do a stretch and sweep yesterday, but said that my cervix is soft but not very favourable. They have booked me for induction at 40 + 4, but I am going to call today and postpone in until 41 weeks. I really want a natural birth. and induction terrifies me, especially the fact that he hasn't really engaged yet!!! This is the first time I have felt really anxious about the birth. I just imagined that I would have a story to tell...you know.....I went into labour at 3am blah blah, or that my waters broke in Target!! I know that you can feasibly wait until 42 weeks, but they have said that it is slightly risker at 40 years old.

I'm feeling very down and now just feel like it will never happen. Of course it has to, but it all just feels bizarre now. Where is my little boy????