BeiBei, after yet another morning of waking up to find the ms even worse again... rejoice in your freedom while you can! I'm certainly feeling really cheesed off that both my mother and my sister had no difficulties conceiving, no morning sickness... and I drew the short straw on both so far!

I managed to drag myself out of the house for a bit this afternoon. Decided to go shopping... came home with some new PJ pants and some more books to read. Novels this time, rather than pregnancy books. When I first got to the shopping centre I had the strangest reaction - I could see that it was full of pregnant women and babies in prams, and my first reaction was to think that life was so unfair, they're everywhere, I can't cope, I need to go home! It took a conscious effort on my part to actually make myself remember that very soon I'm going to be one of those pregnant women... well, I am now, it's just that you can't see it.

I managed to even make myself look at baby stuff... it's going to take a long time to get over the LTTTC mindset. There's a few babies born this year that I just haven't been able to buy gifts for - and I still can't manage it!

How long does it take to overcome that mindset and start thinking of yourself as pregnant, and to actually be able to go baby shopping? whether it be for your own or for someone else's, I still just can't do it. Am I really so strange?

BW