Thanks Mako

That was my thinking, dh has already told me that he really doesnt want to be a 50 yr old dad with a newborn and I realise its premature to even start this conversation again but sort of intermixed with the great excitement of meeting bubs...I have already started the whole should we start again straight after? do I want 2 bubs close together? what if I dont ovulate again? how long should I leave it before panicking again? You know the usual questions

I think my brain is trying to distract me from the general life changing event fast approaching......im so scared not in a my god its going to hurt type way but in a oh my god we are actually having a baby type way

Still life is good I should be focussing on the amazing blessing that we got pregnant and that I have had a relatively easy pregnancy....all I need now is my gorgeous bub to be healthy and I think we will be complete (I cant believe im managing to go up and down in this post, there is no hope)