Possums, thinking of you I am so sorry you have to go through all of this waiting and wondering. I hope you're OB appt has given you some answers or at least direction.
Possums, it sure has been one hell of a roller coaster ride for you lately. I hope you get good news this afternoon and things can level out to be some sort of normal.
Possums - I have absolutely everything crossed for you and bubs. I hope that you get some good news at your OB appointment this afternoon. I'm so sorry you're having to go through this.
Thanks so much for the supportive words and kind thoughts. It sure has been a rollercoaster lately. You help make it easier. Just having people to talk to who actually get it.
TG I so hope mine is a fighter and hangs on like your Baby Tigger has.
My OB has basically left me in this horrible limbo land of waiting and not knowing .... he said, the fact the levels haven't actually gone down is a good thing and the fact we had a heartbeat on Friday is also good. But, having said that, he'd much prefer to see me with levels in the normal range, which had risen at the rate they should, rather than almost levelling out. So he said we have to sit tight and have another scan Friday week when we should be able to see a lot more if things are going as they should be...a whole week and a half away!!!! It could really go either way at this stage apparently. I will be second guessing every symptom I have. If I have any bleeding etc I am to call him.
I have cried and fretted and now I am trying to calm down and think positive for the little one's sake. I have acupuncture booked tomorrow too which will hopefully help.
I also can choose to have another BT in a week, before the scan to see how things are going....which he said will either give me hope, or cause me more worry, if they still aren't right. I think I'll prob have the blood test just to get some idea.
I must admit to feeling a bit sorry for myself today....just wishing we could have an easy run, like friends I know who fell pregnant straight away then had a dream run.... I'll get over myself ! I guess we'll all cherish our babies even more.
Friday week! Oh Possums, I'm so sorry that your appointment hasn't really given you many answers. A week and a half is an age away. It does sound like your OB doesn't want you to give up hope though, he would be honest about it if he thought bubs had no chance.
It sounds like a good idea to me to have the BT, at least it's a week away rather than a week and a half, and surely that will give you a good idea of what's going on.
You are perfectly entitled to feel more than a bit sorry for yourself, this is torture waiting and not knowing if your baby is going to be OK. Hopefully the acupuncture will give you something to focus on and might help your baby to stick harder.
Huge hugs to you hun, I really wish that this could be easier for you.
ohh possums, i really hope your ok, couldnt he do a scan for you today? its so horrible having to wait
I think i said in it in your other thread but my clinic stopped testing my HCG when i was 6 weeks as they said it becomes very erractic and will just stress me out more, once they saw my bubs wasnt ectopic again they pretty much left me alone. I really hope this is the case for you, but its still not fair to go through so much stress, espicially if that is the case. Take care and get loads a cuddles from DH and keep sending that little bub all the positive energy you can muster. Know that we are all here for you and sending you loads of positive cyber vibes.
possums - i'm so sorry you didn't get more definitive answers from your OB - next friday seems so damn far away! but, your OB doesn't seem to have given up hope, which means you shouldn't either. my clinic seems very much like scooby's in that, once HB was detected, they've stopped HCG testing. the ranges of HCG that are "normal" at this point are HUGE, and it's so hard if it's not following that "pattern" to not fret. i'm really feeling for you, and will pray for your bub to be healthy.
and as devon said - you're more than allowed to be feeling sorry for yourself at this time - when things aren't going to the pre-set "recipe" we all fret - so don't you ever feel guilty!! hold onto hope babe - and we'll send as many positive vibes as we can to you and your little bubba
Oh possums, I'm sorry you have had this worrying news. I have a feeling it is going to work out and the baby is going to be fine. I don't know why, but I know that you need to do everything you can right now to stay positive. I don't want to throw a hundred cliches at you, but the best thing you can do is to will that baby on with every cell in your body. I'll be thinking of you over the next few days. I pray to my granny to have words with the angels for you.
Possums, Briggsy's Girl, Tigger Linda, Butterfly Warrior - thanks for the healing words of wisdom. I'm surprised at myself. I knew my gran was in pain and I knew it was coming for months and yet I'm still so full of sadness. I guess it's because the day before she went back in to hospital for the last time was the day we told her that I was pregnant. When she found out that the cancer was back she told all the family (even though we asked her not to) because she wanted everyone to focus on some good news rather than that the cancer was back. The day before she died she woke up (wide awake) and grabbed my hand and said Thank you for a wonderful life. The funeral will be difficult. But thanks again to you for you support. Things will probably be easier once the funeral and the final goodbyes are said and done.
Oh Possums... what a hard time you are having at the moment . I'm so sorry that you have been left in this limbo. I agree with the girls - if your OB thought there was no hope he would have said so. Remember that Doctors always err on the side of caution... so they tend to tell you the worst case scenario. I know this week and a half are going to be terribly long and hard... we are here for you and all that your little one is just keeping you on your toes. Focus on the baby and look after yourself. I am sending all the positive vibes I can your way.
Nic - I'm so sorry to hear about your Grandma. Knowing that it is going to happen doesn't stop the shock and the grief. How wonderful that she was able to know about your pregnancy before she passed. Take comfort in knowing the joy that would have given her.
Thanks everyone for the support, as usual it really does help.
I am trying to stay positive (even though sometimes my mind flicks to the worst case scenario and I feel like I am going to crumble...then I pull it back to the positive)...and willing our little one (nicknamed by DH 'Flicker' after we saw it flickering with the heartbeat on Friday...he says that will remind us to keep willing that heart to keep going) to hold on and be strong.
In some ways I wish I didn't know those levels...ignorance can be bliss for a while anyway...then we'd just be happy with the heartbeat we saw. Thanks for your comments about HCG levels sometimes going a bit crazy. I hope we've just had a little hiccup along the way.
It's hard, as you all know so well, when you want something so much.
Nixon- that sounds very touching- your final time with your gran. You are blessed to have had that relationship and had the chance for that final goodbye like that. Hang in there...cry and hopefully the funeral and saying formal goodbyes will also help with the healing.
Hi ladies..hope you've had a good day. I just got back from acupuncture which really helped me relax and connect with our little one...now known as Flicker... after DH's nickname has stuck (after the flickering heartbeat)... I sent so much energy to our baby...keep growing and be strong! Hanging on to the positive approach... and thinking i might see if i can bring that next scan forward a bit earlier...
Possums, I'm glad to hear you are feeling better and more positive after your ap session. It certainly can't hurt to ask about possibly having an earlier scan. I would probably do the same as Friday week feels like an age away for you to have to wait. Good luck.
Nic, so sorry for the loss of your grandma. I have recently been through a similar loss which is still quite raw for me as well. Sending you lots of strength for the funeral. You are truly blessed to have had those final moments with her and to have had such a lovely relationship. Something for you to always treasure. Big
I am so sorry you have to go through all of this waiting and wondering. I hope you're OB appt has given you some answers or at least direction.
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for you and that little one. I am sending you so many positive vibes and will be awaiting some good news from you.
.... he said, the fact the levels haven't actually gone down is a good thing and the fact we had a heartbeat on Friday is also good. But, having said that, he'd much prefer to see me with levels in the normal range, which had risen at the rate they should, rather than almost levelling out. So he said we have to sit tight and have another scan Friday week when we should be able to see a lot more if things are going as they should be...a whole week and a half away!!!! It could really go either way at this stage apparently.
I will be second guessing every symptom I have. If I have any bleeding etc I am to call him.
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