Thanks everyone for the support, as usual it really does help.

I am trying to stay positive (even though sometimes my mind flicks to the worst case scenario and I feel like I am going to crumble...then I pull it back to the positive)...and willing our little one (nicknamed by DH 'Flicker' after we saw it flickering with the heartbeat on Friday...he says that will remind us to keep willing that heart to keep going) to hold on and be strong.

In some ways I wish I didn't know those levels...ignorance can be bliss for a while anyway...then we'd just be happy with the heartbeat we saw. Thanks for your comments about HCG levels sometimes going a bit crazy. I hope we've just had a little hiccup along the way.

It's hard, as you all know so well, when you want something so much.

Nixon- that sounds very touching- your final time with your gran. You are blessed to have had that relationship and had the chance for that final goodbye like that. Hang in there...cry and hopefully the funeral and saying formal goodbyes will also help with the healing.