Scooby and BW, thanks, you guys are great, like everyone here, and your advice is spot on...
thanks all of you for holding my hold through this even if it is over the internet!
We just did a little candle ceremony for our angel...I cried a bit more, but it also felt right and a bit more of a release, step in the process...
Back at work today...this is hard! people know our story and yet of course they don't get it and trying to be strong in here is taking effort...but i knew i had to face it.
i hope you lovely ladies are all doing ok with things. thanks again for the support.
Possums it breaks my heart to see you have to go through this! It is so terrible! I hope that time flies for you so that you can grieve properly and then begin to see the brighter things in life and then embark on a short TTC journey.
AFM: Trying to be positive and embrace this PG but feel so detached. I guess its normal and I'm just trying to protect myself as want to be prepared for the worst - but am hating thinking this way. Constant failure TTC puts you in that headspace I guess.
Hope every1 is doing well. The weather is miserable and am feeling tired and finding it difficult to focus on work.
Mon - I'm finding it a bit the same way. My best friend keeps asking "can we start getting excited yet?" and I don't know what it is but something keeps holding me back. Maybe my thoughts on how it would be have been dashed because of the whole IVF thing and because of that I am finding it hard to believe that something else is not going to go 'wrong'.
It is getting easier and better and I am starting to feel something...the 10 week scan helped with that because it looked like a human. My belly is starting to stick out and we are looking at prams and things, so all of that is taking away the focus on what the negative outcomes could be. Anyway, all you can do is keep on keeping on. I have a few family histories of bad outcomes, but much later in the pregnancy - this is making it a scary process for me, but I have to own it and let it go.
Possums - you are a trooper. I know that as time passes you will find it easier at work and you are right...you do have to face it head on. If you didn't it would probably be harder the longer you left it.
Mon and Nixon- your feelings are so understandable...after a hard journey there, feeling anxious/worried/detached/waiting for something to go wrong is hard to avoid. I felt those things too...and I know when I am pregnant next time it will be even worse, after this recent loss.
But it's good if you can also find the positive/happy side of things so you can also enjoy your pregnancies.
BG- glad the scan went well...exciting time for you
BG, so glad to hear that your scan went well, and love your ticker very cute
Mon, it is at times so hard to stay positive and you will embrace your pregnancy in your own time. It made it a little more real for me once I had 1st first scan...but must say to date I am still in shock and do hold back getting to excited...I guess we are just trying to protect our hearts.
TL, great news on telling work...woo hoo on being offical!!
Possum, thinking of you You are brave to go back to work so soon... take care
AFM, First OB last Friday and all went went. Next visit is the 7th November!!
Possums - I've read a few of your posts on the various threads and I just want to say you are amazing. You are there for everyone on each thread while going through such a sad time.
I really hope things turn around for you soon.
I keep my fingers crossed that you start to feel better and that Jan comes by quickly so you can get started again and join us here very soon.
Take care, use this time to de-stress and prepare for Jan
Just thought I'd stop in to say I hope your friday flys and you have a fabulous weekend.
No real news, just a question - my 7.2kg cat jumped form the floor directly onto my uterus this morning as I lay in bed awaiting my final snooze alarm to go off - very unpleasant when you are lying as still as possible because you really need to get up for a wee. Not sure if I should ring the dr - do you reckon the baby is protected enough from that kind of impact?
Hi Girls
Sorry i have been missing again, trying to finish my uni degree and work! Firstly i just wanted give possums a big hug i shed a tear when i read your news and think you are an amazing beautiful person, take care of yourself during this difficult time.
To nixon/mon/TL i completely understand the not getting excited thing, i guess for me i work in ultrasound and i see so many losses every week its hard to imagine yours will be the one that stays, even though statistics tell me different. This week i was worried because i had been quite ill with vomitting and a fever and couldnt see anything myself. One of my colleagues took a look for us in 3D and i felt connnected for the first time because it started throwing a tantrum with its little legs and arms.
Well best of luck girls until we talk next, hugs to all .
I can't believe how time has flown. It's so good to see everyone's tickers motoring along. Sometimes I feel like I've been pregnant forever (mainly when I've been feeling sick) and there are other times like today that I can't believe I am 15 weeks.
Yesterday I resigned from my job. I had planned to back in August but didn't because I found out I was pg. Thought I could stick it out 6 more months. This was my first week back after 2 weeks off and the ***** hit the fan so I decided it was time to go. I have worked hard to get my job to the point where I can work a normal 8 hour day and go home and not worry about it. They just keep piling more on me. Apparently, if I can come in at 9 and leave at 5 then I have capacity to have more crap thrown at me. I told them I wasn't willing to do the extra hours, especially now that I'm pregnant. Basically, they have shown a complete lack of support for my situation by putting me under more pressure. It's taken me so long to get pregnant, I am not going to be stressed out by work for the next 5 months. Time to go temping for me I think. Although DH suggested I stay home and cook dinner, and have the house beautiful for him when he comes home from work!! lol Dreamer!!
I hope everyone is doing well.
Nic how are you after your cat jumped on you? I wouldn't think it would be a problem, but if you started having any pain I would get it checked out just to ease your mind.
I have lost almost all of my pg symptoms. Have had no m/s since last Monday. Have lost my appetite completely and feeling very not-pregnant! Is this normal at this stage? My naturopath said I would probably start questioning at some point if I was pg, but I didn't think it would be this sudden that everything just disappeared.
A lot of you have been my friends on my TTC journey for a while now, and I lot of you I also know from cheering you along quietly from the sidelines of TTC.
BUT.....I'm proud, happy, excited, ecstatic, over the moon, overwhelmed and a multitude of other words, to be joining you here in the pregnancy thread!!!!!!
YAHOO!!!!
DH and I got our BFP on Thursday, after a horrible week in hospital with OHSS. To say I have had a hard time would be an understatement. I just could never have imagined I would have been so unwell as a direct result of TTC.
Finally I was discharged from hospital yesterday. I am staying with my family for a few days while DH is away.
I am still really not well. Today my back has started to fill with fluid. I am a little scared to be honest..they say this can go on for the 1st trimester. BUT, I'm sure you all would agree with me in that I would do all this again in a heartbeat to get the result I have achieved.
I had my BT on day 13, and my HCG was 100...pretty high I'm told. I had 2 little embies transferred and apparently there are bets going on at my clinic that I am carrying twins!!! 1 or 2 babies, DH and I know we are blessed.
So back to the clinic on Monday, for a follow up HCG test. Maybe all you girls can give me your thoughts when you find out my numbers??
I thankyou all in advance for the support and friendship I know you will give me as many of you have already been great friends to me in the past.
This is the most exciting time for us, but for me a little scary, as I have 2 angel babies looking down on me. I feel though that this will be our forever baby. This little one or one's have a strong will to survive already after the journey I have been on this last week and I know our 2 angels are looking down on us and helping us along.
I will start to catch up with where everyone is at now, and follow your journeys and hopefully be a friend and support for you all.
Bel- I am just online after a few days away and just read your wonderful news!!!!!! Yahooooooooooo!!!!!! I am so happy and relieved for you. Sorry you have had t suffer the OHSS and hope you feel better soon, but I know emotionally you must be over the moon.
Congratulations Bel - It is just so wonderful to see you here!
In regards to your test, I had my blood test done on what would have been 16dpo and it was 480 with a single pregnancy. Your levels certainly sound very good for an early test!
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You are brave to go back to work so soon... take care
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