Hi Ladies,

I don't post in here very often at all but am having a bad day and knew you'd all understand. to everyone - it's so good to see some LTTTC girls graduating into this thread, and I feel so privileged to have shared much of my journey with you all. Sending lots of labourvibes to LilMiss!

So... a bit of a rant. One of my friends started TTC about four months ago, and I discovered today that she's 12 weeks pregnant. Quite aside from being very happy for her (truly!), and even looking forward to sharing the experience with her, I'm also really angry with the world and feeling very sad about it. Why is she so lucky? Why did the dice fall her way so easily? Seriously, Why can't it be as hard for her as it was for us? I have been very emotional and upset all afternoon and haven't yet returned her call - I will, and I will be gracious and happy for her (because I am), but I am also hurting a lot as well. That's not her fault and I won't make her suffer for it, but I expect that she'll be understanding of why I am a bit reserved around her. I know this is my baggage, and not hers. I'm also quite shocked to discover that my emotions are so strong despite me now being 32 weeks pregnant myself - but I guess that's what infertility will do to you.

Okay, rant over. I do often lurk in here and enjoy seeing you all getting along with your pregnancies. I'm just very bad at keeping up with everyone and keeping up with myself half the time!

Thanks for the ear ladies,
Seph