Hi Ladies, I hope you don't mind me joining... today I feel like I'm about to have a meltdown and thought maybe this group might understand...

After about 20 months of ttc, and in all that time there was nothing, we finally got our bfp last week! We were of course very happy but also very cautious. I think after so long of ttc, we kinda developed some natural emotional protection from disappointment or something which prevents us from being too estatic? Anyway, I started to get a bit excited but the last couple of days, I've just been so anxious about m/c. I feel like it is just too good to be true. I'm not sure how I'm going to survive 9 months of this, or I guess the next 8 weeks or so until we're in a safer zone. Then I start feeling guilty for not being happy and just enjoying this moment we've waited so long for!

Anyway sorry about that, but it feels good to get it off my chest. I'm looking forward to getting to know you guys more. I think the only one I've 'met' is Maruschke - big belated congrats on the pregnancy hun, a lovely baby boy for you yay!!