Oh myturn thank you so much - your post made me cry, but in a good way.

Into be honest, I wasnt sure when I was writing my post, that I was doing the right thing. The last thing I would ever want to do is upset anyone, especially WW. Buti felt an overwhelming need to share my journey - mainly because when I was having my twins, I felt as though everyone else who was having or had already had twins - had found it really easy. Or at least that's what I thought...

There were a couple of amazing mummers that already had one or two kids when their twins were born - and somehow they managed to look after all of their children (including their twins) by themselves (with their DH).... I wasn't able to do this, it was just all too much for me.

I wanted WW and anyone else who visited here, to know that it's okay if it doesn't turn out to be something you can do all by yourself. I couldn't and I spent months hating myself for being what I thought was a failure as a mummy and friend and wife. I now know that I was normal and if sharing my story (even though it's a little bit embarrassing) helps someone else, then it will be completely worthwhile in posting it.

Myturn - I'm so excited you are 30 weeks! You are absolutely glowing in your FB pics... I am so excited for you that it's not long now until you meet your long awaited bubba I think you are justbgoing to make the most beautiful and amazing mummy. And I am so thrilled for you. I remember feeling as though the best thing about making 30 weeks is feeling as though if the baby was born now, he or she would be okay. I was always able to 'relax' from 30 weeks onwards and enjoy the rest of the pregnancy I hope you are feeling the same.

I have everything crossed for you that GD doesn't become and issue for you - I'm sure it won't

One of the best parts of pregnancy for me is BB. Being able to share the journey with amazing women like you! So thank you for having me and making me feel welcome, accepted and "normal"...

AFM - after not being able to have the recommended BT's for the last 11 days because we have been away, I had a BT yesterday and my hcg levels were 48,000 (based on my previous BT levels before we went away, my FS had said anything over 20,000 would be fantastic) after yesterday's results he has said no more BT's which I am a little surprised about because he told me we would be doing BT's for another 10 days, every 3 days (so another 3 x BT's prior to having a dating scan). My FS personally called me yesterday - after the clinic had called me with the BT results and he wants me to go into his rooms for a scan this coming Thursday - which is also a week earlier than he had initially discussed. He didn't beat around the bush, he said based on our previous one and only IVF cycle, which was a FET where we had one blastie transferred and ended up with identical twins - (my hcg levels were lower on the same day in that cycle, than they were yesterday on the same day in this cycle) he said he wants to do the scan early to check "whether there is one or two in there"!!!!!!

I am moderately freaked out. Before having one blastie transferred this cycle - my DH and I did discuss what would happen if we ended up with identicals again... Tbh, I kind of didn't really think about it seriously, knowing that it is still pretty rare to conceive identical twins, from a single transfer. I just kind of thought, there is no way litening would strike in the same place twice. My gut is telling me there is only one baby in there (because I still just don't think could end up with identical twins again) - but since yesterday's results, my DH seems to think there is a possibility there will be two in there! He just said "all I will say is that I won't be super surprised if it happens again, mainly because the blastie we transferred is from the same batch of embies as the girls". When we were considering trying for a final baby, our FS said there was no increased risk of having another set of identicals - just because we had already had one set and the blasts were from the same 'batch' of harvested embies, he said scientifically there was no additional increased risk (outside of the normal chance of having a slightly increased chance of multiples from IVF.

If it is twins again, I will be completely blown away. To be completely honest as much as we adore our twins, I don't think we could cope with another set. My DH and I agreed before we started trying, that there is no way we would selectively reduce one of a set of identical twins - our FS said this would be an option if we wanted to consider it as my body would find it hard to carry twins again (the last pg took a massive toll on my body from a physical pov). But watching our identicals together now, we know there is no way we could consider robbing one of their identical brother or sister... Anyway I am sure I am worrying about nothing! I still believe lightening doesn't strike in the same place twice - and the odds of having another set of twins must be pretty unlikely. Although as DH says "stranger things have happened". I cannot imagine how we would cope with another set of twins - the cost alone would be overwhelming (we would have to move house and get a new car again - for the second time in 2 years!). Anyway, sorry to end with the all about me post.... Especially when I am worrying about something that is purely hypothetical! I feel as though I am wasting your time, reading about something that is unlikely to happen!

Can I ask before I go.... Myturn do you have any gut feelings about the sex of your bubba? As it's your first I'm guessing as long as he or she is healthy you don't mind at all whether it's a boy or girl? Likewise, TT40 do you have any gut feelings aboutthe sex of this bubba? And finally, WW - as you are having identicals (and I must say, I really am so so excited for you - do you have any intuitive feelings about the sex of your bubbas?

I think I've already said I am hoping for a boy (although of course as long as it is healthy and safe we would be happy with either) - but as of just yesterday, I have a gut feeling it is a boy. Only because I had Hyperemisis with my first DS (vomited 20 times per day for the entire pg - until one week AFTER he was born), also had pretty bad ms with my second son (now almost 5), but with the twinnies (girls) I had much less nausea/ vomiting.... But with this pg - the nausea started about a week ago and I have been vomiting a few times per day for the last 4 or so days... This is leading me to think it may be a blue 'package' but it could just be that my hcg is on the high side, and nothing to do with baby's sex (in other words just wishful thinking We have decided once again to find out the sex - just so we can be better prepared with the nursery and clothes etc.... Is anyone else planning on finding out the sex?

Xxxx