We've made it to 17 weeks today

I feel a little comfort but I'm sad to admit that there is still a piece of me which won't fully surrender myself to the thought that everything will be ok and we will get to hold our babe in 23 weeks time.

Its a sad feeling and whilst it doesnt consume me, I envy the days where the thought of losing a babe would never enter my mind.

I'm still happy though and am enjoying the reassuring kicks and swirls from the little person growing inside me.