I've been internalizing these thoughts but it's time I say it out aloud.

I'm worried I'll forget Reid. I mean I know I won't forget him but I'm worried his memory will fade.

Something when this babe is moving and kicking I forget that he's not Reid.

I'm happy we're having another boy but I also think why couldnt we just have been able to keep Reid.

So many emotions at the moment. Fear seems to be a dominant one at the moment.