i lost my beautiful baby boy at 21 weeks due to abnormalities

[*Beema*]

Ness, thankyou for having the courage to share your heart filled story, I sit here with tears pouring down my face, and they continued to tumble as I watched your montage, it was just beautiful. Liam is loved by so many, the photos are a testimony to that, what priceless memories, he is watching over all of you.

Fly free sweet Liam...

[Trish]

Ness, I am humbled. Thank you for sharing your story of sweet little Liam with us. I sit here with tears streaming for you. What a perfect little angel he is.

I am so very glad that you were able to get some precious photos of your little man and that you have been able to do yourself some healing with sharing your story.

May you forever fly free

[sunshine_sieben]

Ness, I am writing this in tears. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. You are inspiring. Liam Matthew has a very strong woman as a mother.
I don't know what to say... but I think it is the greatest gift you can give to your little man to be able to release him the way you did...

My thoughts are with you and your family,
Sasa

[~ Mylitta ~]

Ness, I am amazed by your strength and am so proud that you are able to grieve in such a positive way for your beautiful son Liam. After reading your story and watching Liam's montage, I don't think I have cried this hard since I lost my own angel.

It is such a gift that you and your family where able to spend time with Liam after his birth. The photos convey every bit of love that every person in that room held for your son.

Thank you so much for sharing yours and Liam's story with us.

[sunshine_sieben]

I just watched your montage. He's so beautiful. It looks like he was born into a wonderful loving family. I am so sorry for your loss.

[Angel Babies 3]

I am so very sorry. What a heart wrenching thing for you to go through.
I think you did the right thing having a natural birth. Very hard but it certainly does help with the grieving process. This is something I have learnt from experience.

My heart goes out to you and rest assured we are all here if and when you need us.

Debbie

[~breeze~]

Thank you so much for sharing your story with us, I was in tears. He was just beautiful & what a wonderful & loving family he has.

[~Aveta~]

that was a beautiful tribute thank you for sharing

[Stars69]

Ness,

I am so sorry for your loss. I have not been where you are but my heart goes out to you.

Your montage was beautiful, and I sat watching it crying.

What a lovely honour you did him.

I hope in time you find some peace and lots of happiness.

[kas]

thankyou for sharing your story, Liam's montage was beautiful. It is a credit to you and your DH of the love you have for him, the strength you have and most of all a very special precious memory of your little boy.

[Liviam]

Ness your little man is absolutely perfect. I am so honoured that you felt comfortable enough to share your gorgeous montage which I watched with tears streaming down my face. Liam is truely an angel to perfect for this world.

[Mon]

Hi ness ... thank you for sharing your story and your lovely montage! I was in tears!!!
You are truly an amazing strong woman and a deserved Angel Mum! May you be blessed with earth children soon and long live little Liam.
Mon

[karen130373]

Ness you had a beautiful boy and you have done a wonderful job on his montage i am really sorry for you loss, i would love to know what was the song that was playing it went so well with the photos

[ness558]

Ness you had a beautiful boy and you have done a wonderful job on his montage i am really sorry for you loss, i would love to know what was the song that was playing it went so well with the photos

the song we are playing is josh groban "to where you are".... we played it at liams funeral when we were releasing the balloons.. it means a lot to me...

[ness558]

Hello everyone

Just thought let you know we got liams autopsy results and it confirms what the mri and scans showed was correct and that he was missing the corpus collosum (the area of tissue connecting the two half halves of the brain) associated with a large cyst between the two halves of the brain. In addition to this he had an abnormal defect on his left half of his brain known as a cleft. Also there were abnormal tissues reflecting the area of nerve connection as well.

They don?t have any answers why this happened , only that it was a freak of nature . ( as we suspected as we knew from the amino that it was a genetic disorder ) the rest of his body was perfectly normal , he was normal size, normal heart , normal kidney , normal lungs etc . The only part that was abnormal ( didn?t develop properly ) was his brain. Why this happened medically we will never know.



This is all good as it means that what happened to liam was ?a freak of nature? and there should be no reason why we cant have healthy children in the future. All my obst advised was to put me on high doses of folic acid as this has been know to reduce the chances of spina bifida and although liam didn?t have this he did suffer from a neuro tube defect( ie connection in his brain ) so they just wanted to take extra precaution for future pregnancies.

All in all I am happy as I everything concludes what I was told from the start anyway and I happy that I didn?t cause this to happen to him ( which I knew anyway but it was nice to be told) and that I did everything right during the pregnancy and there was no way of preventing what happened to him .. it was just his journey which I already knew anyway but it is a comfort to know this and I can never have a doubt in my mind, nor hold any guilt and I can move forward to new beginnings in my life ..



Love ness

Xxxxxxx

[Sues]

{{{HUGS}}} for you Ness. Words cannot describe how sorry I am to hear of your little boy's passing. Liam is now your little angel & he will always be there for you & your family. Unfortunately, there are quite a few of us who understand your pain. Thank you for sharing your montage. He is a true angel.