Firstly darling woman big massive hugs...

I don't know what is happening either. However a few things. Prednisolone can be most effective when commenced prior to conception - the same with heparin. The rationale being that if you have NK cell overload the steroids take time to create a less hostile environment - clexane is beneficial prior to conception for implantation etc etc.

I know well that Dr S doesn't "like" commencing clexane prior to conception - however it does work sometimes.

Now, the bleeding is behind the baby - I am not sure where you mean. However it can be very very difficult to ascertain a bleeding point in utero at such an early gestation.

I understand why the clexane has been ceased but not why the steroids have been ceased? How much prednisone were you on?

I am sorry that the sonographer was so disrespectful. I am sorry that a heart beat couldn't be found - I am just so sorry.

There is a little one there that is holding on tight. Send him all your energy. Talk to him, love him. He/she will feel that and know it.

As for your relationship withstanding this. I understand very very well what you mean. My husband has resented deeply my need for another child and the sadness that brought to our family. I cannot answer for you. I can only say that you need to go deeply within yourself - get some joint counselling - really really nut it out together.

But for now, right now you are pregnant and there is a baby with a heartbeat. Measurements are very difficult to be spot on at such a tiny size so don't put all your eggs in that basket.

Please know I am HERE. I am here and all I can do is support you and send you my loving friendship and energy. If I was in Melb I would be there in a heartbeat with my teapot!