Bub's been a bit quiet this week, but still some movement here and there with a few thumps. Then last night it was nothing. I tried the drinking cold water and laying on my side (both sides). I tried poking my belly. No reaction. Bub usually starts up when I do a hypnosis script (probably because I'm so peaceful), so this morning I tried that. Nothing....

I took some resuce remedy to try to stop the rising panic. Nothing happening as I got ready for the day. I started thinking I need to call the MW and see if I could get the HB measured. In the back of my mind, I've started preparing for the worst, starting to think about getting a scan...going through the whole nightmare

I gave bub until 10am to do something and then I'd call the MW. Meanwhile I had breakfast. At 9:58 I felt a kick, then some more flickers. I feel like I'm going to turn grey before this kid is born...it's so close but the fear of something going wrong is always there...